Jennifer Aniston shares her secretive IVF journey.
That friends The 53-year-old star has been plagued by tabloid pregnancy rumors throughout her time in the spotlight — and in a way no other star has. She had to deny gossip and speculation about her body over and over again and then some. Now she’s revealing for the first time that amid all the public poking and prodding about something so personal, she had privately tried to conceive but it wasn’t successful.
in the allure December cover story, the morning show Star, 53, said she feels “at my best in who I am today, better than I ever did in my 20’s or 30’s or even my mid-40’s.” She said that in her late 30’s and 40’s they were “really tough S*** went through, and if I hadn’t gone through that, I never would have become who I was meant to be.” She said she’s “grateful for all these shitty things. Otherwise I would have been stuck being this person who was so scared, so nervous and so unsure of who they were. And now I don’t know f Damn caring.”
That was then friends Alum revealed, “I was trying to get pregnant. It was a challenging path for me, the baby making path.”
She doesn’t give a timeline, but added, “All the years and years and years of speculation … It’s been really hard. I went through IVF, drank Chinese tea, whatever. I threw everything at it. I would have given anything if someone said to me, ‘Freeze your balls. Do yourself a favor.’ You just don’t think so. So I’m here today. The ship has sailed.”
Today, “I have no regrets,” she said. “I actually feel a little relieved now because there’s no ‘Can I? Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.’ I don’t have to think about that anymore.”
Perhaps the biggest slap in the face, she said, was the tabloid “that I was just being selfish. I was just caring about my career,” and that’s why she didn’t get pregnant. This was a tabloid thread when she was married to Brad Pitt from 2000-2004, and then revived when she was married to Justin Theroux from 2015-2017.
“And God forbid a woman is successful and doesn’t have a child,” she added. “And the reason my husband left me, why we separated and ended our marriage, was because I didn’t want to give him a child. They were outright lies. I have nothing to hide at this point.”
Aniston used many different approaches to dealing with tabloid pregnancy rumors, from joking about her to writing an op-ed for the Huffington Post In 2016, she criticized the media for her obsession with her pregnancy.
“I was so frustrated,” she said, “hence this comment I wrote. don’t let it come in and hurt.”
Aniston said she “spent so many years protecting my story about IVF. I’m so protective of these parts because I feel like there’s so little I can keep to myself [world] creates narratives that aren’t true, so I might as well tell the truth. I feel like I’m coming out of hibernation. I have nothing to hide.”
The star said she’s learned to take the “darker things that happen in our lives, the not-so-happy moments” and “find places to honor them because of what they gave us… It’s toxic.” To have that resentment, that anger.” She spoke about the growth she’s been through as a person, healing from her trauma, including childhood wounds, growing in a broken home with her, and a challenging relationship with her late mother .
“I had long overdue personal work to do, parts of me that hadn’t healed since childhood,” she revealed. “I am a very independent person. Intimacy has always been a little bit here [extending her hand an arm’s length in front of her] I’ve realized that you’ll always be working on stuff. I’m a constant work in progress. Thank God. How uninteresting would life be if we all attained enlightenment and that was it?”
But after “going through a period that was challenging,” she’s found herself “back into the light.” And although she’s single, she’s open to a relationship with the right partner.
“I didn’t want to work with anyone until some of that work was done. It wouldn’t be fair,” she told the outlet. While she will “never say never” to a third marriage, “I’m not interested.” However, “I would love a relationship. Who knows? There are moments when I just want to crawl into a ball and say, ‘I need support.’ It would be wonderful to come home and hug someone and say, ‘It’s been a tough day.'”